Choices

I hope I´m doing things right...

So weird...

One is worse than the other...
Is it really going to continue this way!? I have one word, x!
I almost got my door kicked in this afternoon, I got threatend and all because I want my kids to be true to themselves and not to be forced to do things they do not want to do. Little persons with own thoughts and will power, within the frame of the law of course. That way they will learn the consequences of their own decisions and will become strong persons with self confidence, learn to trust themselves and will listen to their inner voice. And for that, I learned today, I will be "finished"...
We´ll see...
So tired of guys I think I´ll puke! No more! No one! Gah!
I know for sure though, my boys won´t ever be like that!!
I love you my kiddies!

Huggies and kisses mommie

Loveish

Clearblue...

Just to make things clear...
About my last blogg...
If you react and feel like it hit you, maybe it should..
Maybe you should ask yourself some questions about your life, for your own sake...
If you are true and really my friend I know you don´t react like if you were hit.
Today it´s been a working day and of course I overslept this morning! Gah!! I really hate that!
It always make the day a bummer day when you oversleep, and of course I was supposed to pick one of my coworkers up... He had to take a cab! Ooopss, I am really sorry...
So.. I need to get up around 05,30 tomorrow so I´d better go to sleep now.
To Magnus I want to say,Thank you! I will make an appointment with you!! Maybe you are the best!?! Hehe
And to You, (you know who you are...) Thank you for sending me totally meaningless messages on my cellphone!! Was it anything special you needed to tell me? If that is the case, please pick it up and dial my number! If not, please stop reminding me of a future that will never be! I am happy for you! Very huge congrats!
Puh! All negative energies are now out of my body, at least until tomorrow! haha Just kidding! But please do not horrace me or I might loose my temper....
Remember : Make love NOT war!!

Huggies and kisses
Loveish

Back to reality

I´ve been to Paradise and back... Thank you for taking me! I will allways remember these two days! Just great!
Back to business again, both my job and my business. I really have to get my but off the chair now! It is fun so why shouldn´t I!?
I can now feel, the feeling is so intense, I am dead tired of LIES!!!! So tired of getting lied to, it doesn´t matter if it is the smallest most innocent lie ever created! Do NOT lie to me!
Wonder why you do... Am I so scary? What do you think I would do if you for once told me the truth? You are really pathetic... Just so you know, it all comes back to you. I do not trust anything you say anymore. Happy?!
You are now out of my life!! Get off my back!
This is all about one person... Of course, you know who it is. Who else!?!?!? ha ha unbelievable!

Today I´m going to work around 3 in the afternoon, work until ten tonight.. Hmmm gonna fall asleep!! My whole body still aches, I don´t know what to do.. I guess I will have to go see a doctor, but what can they do?! The pain is still gonna be there! Today is sunny and warm, it is time for breakfast outside, in the sun!
See you later!

Loveish hugs´n´kisses

Another sunday...

The weeks are just going too fast for me!!
It is allready sunday, but I have two more days off!! Tomorrow I am going to a recreation center, based on a japanese way of living, warm baths, massage and good food! I have been invited by a friend and it is going to be really exciting!
Today´s been so sunny and warm it makes my whole world spin! Everything is so much easier to deal with! We have been cleaning the area we live in, we all get togheter and sweep and plant flowers and afterwards we eat hot dogs drink soda and have some coffee all togheter, it is kind of fun :-). So now I am pretty tired, have to go to sleep early tonight I think.
Lucky me!! I got help to change the tires on my car! Thank you so much!!!
I have a few more things to do now, but I will talk top you again on tuesday night! Have a nice evening and a good monday! I will!

Loveish

The sign...

Maybe it is a sign...

even though it is a potatoe.... Hehehe :-)

Loveish

Wonderful :-)

Imagine what you can do at the doctor´s. ?? :-) Even that was a funny experience!

Crazy boy!

Wonderful :-)

Hej anonym ( hehe darling Gumms :-) )

Om man ska titta på videos, som jag lägger in, så går man till "playlist" och pausar playlistan under tiden :-)

Testa!

Loveish

This is my place!

Utdrag ur;
En saga om en förtrollad plats.

Christoffer Robin och Nalle Puh pratar om vad de tycker mest om att göra. Christoffer Robin berättar att han tycker mest om att göra ingenting.
- Hur gör man ingenting? frågar Puh, sedan han funderat en lång stund.
- Jo, det är när nån ropar till en, just när man ska gå ut:
"Vad ska du göra Christoffer Robin?"
och man säger : "Åh, just ingenting", och sen går man och gör det.
- Jaså, sa Puh.
- Det är sånt där ingenting som vi gör just nu.
- Jaså, sa Puh igen.
- Det är att gå och ströva och lyssna på allt som man inte kan höra, och ha det skönt.
- Å ! sa Puh.
De traskade på och tänkte på litet av varje, och så småningom kom de till en förtrollad plats högst uppe i skogen, där sextio nånting träd stod i ring, och Christoffer Robin visste att den var förtrollad, och ingen hade nånsin kunnat räkna om det var sextiotre eller sextiofyra, inte ens om man knöt ett snöre om varje träd, när man hade räknat det.
Eftersom platsen var förtrollad, var marken inte övervuxen med ris och ljung och ormbunkar som i skogen utan täckt med kortvuxet gräs, som var mjukt och lent och grönt. det var den enda platsen i skogen, där man kunde slå sig ner var som helst utan att genast behöva resa sig upp igen för att leta efter ett bättre ställe.
När man satt där, såg man hela världen utbredd framför sig, ända tills den nådde fram till himlen, och allt som fanns i hela vida världen hade man hos sig på det stället.

Big guy or still mommies baby?

My little one, he is six years old now, he came from his fathers yesterday. He had a rash on his cheaks I thought it was because of the sun (it wasn´t sunny yesterday, I wonder where I was all day...) By bedtime the rash had spread all over his body.. My poor little baby...

The first two pictures from when he is asleep, and still my little one...

The third is when he is on his rollerblades, for the first time and he is just off!! My little big guy!!

Off on his own but still coming home to me,to get comfort!

No wonder the youth are confused!!

Loveish

Måste läsas..

Liza Marklund..
Behöver man säga mera??
Läs artikeln från expressen, länk nedan.

And for those of you who can not speak swedish, I´ll try to translate it later today for you. It is an article, written by a swedish author called Liza Marklund she is just the best!!

http://www.expressen.se/kronikorer/lizamarklund/1.1123405/liza-marklund-hur-mycket-ar-en-liten-cyklande-flicka-vard

Just pictures :-)

Me colouring my hair! Hehe And the result :-))

The Eye, my eye... It can see everything, I see through you! :-)

My beloved son!

Engla - Candles are burning for you and your family!

Monday morning, again! I just picked Hampus up from his fathers. He´s got two days off from school, lucky him :-) I´m putting in some pictures now, as promised :-)

Maybe someone is sneeking around here ;-) If that is the case, let me know who you are :-))

Today it´s raining, again. It was really sunny and warm this morning but it is always changing.

Tonight at nine, we will light some candles for the 10 year old girl, Engla, who was murdered, and found yesterday. Candles will burn all over Sweden! Light some candles for her and her family, light some candles to show that you are against all the unprovoked violence!! It is really terrible...

My prayers to her family..

I will add som more pictures :-)

Boyce Avenue

The song called "Find Me"

Enjoy!! :-)



Watch the video:

A new world is a dreamworld

Update...

Last night, close to midnight.... I could hear the phone ringing as if it was in another room, far away.
I was just about to fall asleep, on my way into another world. So nice, so warm..
I woke up as if someone just stabbed me! The damn phone, it almost gave me a hearattack!
It was one of my friends, telling me I might be going on a blind date one of these better days.. Well.. I am not so sure about that, it is really nice being just ME, doing things MY way, My decisions and so on. I don´t need a man in my life to exist. Right now I want to be just ME!! I have a whole bunch of friends to talk to, laugh and argue with so I don´t need a man for that either.. So why do I need a man??!! Noone seem to know...
Do you?
Hehe
Good nightish

Loveish

Just too tired..

Mmm this is really terrible! It is too early in the morning!! I fell asleep around one in the morning and the alarm went off at 4,30... the phone rang aroung midnight, friends out partying after hat phonecall I had a hard time sleeping.. :-) It made me thinking... :-)) Hmmm hehe Lycky me I´m just working four hours today...
I´m gonna have some breakfast and then I´m off to work. Talk to you later :-)

Loveish

Good night

Gosh! I´m tired...
I will add the picture of my hair tomorrow, just too tired now..
Tomorrow I´m working between 11-21..
just wanted to say goodnigtish

Love

Good morning!

Thank you for writing comments in my blogg! Makes me happy! I hope my english is ok, so you understand what I´m writing :-)
Today I´ve been coloring my hair, more blackish so to speak :-)
I have to go to work in an hour.
Gosh!! Time goes fast!! I made some phonecalls, I signed up for another job and my ex called.
Now I have two jobs!! Hehe Soon I might be able to take my kids on a vacation, abroad somewhere! Maybe Greece or Spain .
And now I have to go! Another thing...
The color of my hair is great as ususal, I like this blackish colour! Hehe Maybe I can take a picture of myself ?! Now I really have to go!
Maybe I will see you guys tonight! I get off work at 10,15 tonight, I´l be home by 10,30.
Have a good dayish!!

Loveish

Good morning!

Goodmorning to you all! It is snowing again! Haha unbelieveable!
Getting ready for work now. I just took a walk with the dog the weather is not pleasent at all!
I see you in the afternoon!
Nu ska jag åka till jobbet först blir det till att skrapa is och borsta snö från bilen, igen... Hatar.. hehe
Snart snart snart är det riktig vår och sommar :-) Me like!!! hehe

Have a good dayish

Loveish

Music..

A song/video just needed to be seen :-))
Daughtry - it isn´t over
Loveish :-)
just heard it, it´s top ten!
I´ll be back ;-)

Good morning!

Time to have some breakfast and go to work :-)
See ya in the afternoon! :-))

Loveish

Nightish..

The appointment I had at the hospital went well. I do not have to change any medicine really, but I´m going to do some experiment hehe:-) It was OK with the doc so...
I´ll try to increase the calcium tablets on those occasions I work my muscles extra hard, that to prevent my legs , feet and toes from cramping. It is not a nice feeling.. So for 6 months I can try different ways with the pills.. Exciting! :-)) Maybe I can reveal some news to the whole team of doc´s! Hehe
I ´ve been to a meeting at school, this time my middle sons class. It is really a troublesome class, getting better though but still needs some more adults in class and around the kids to teach them how to act towards oneanother. Every time I get out of work early och start late I´, going to spend it in school. Theya need more adults, really.. I think I am an adult..
Now I´ll finish this up and then... Mmmm going to sleep :-)
See you guys tomorrow!!

Please don´t forget to say Hi! when you visit my blog! It can really make my day!! :-))

Loveish

Rainy day...

It´s been raining all night and all morning!!
After my walks with the dog I have to put her in the shower, she is more "grayish" so to speak...
Now I have to go to the store to buy litter fot the cat. After that I´m going to the doctor at the hospital. I´m getting the answers on the bloodsamples I´ve taken.
Maybe I have to change some of the medicine I take...
I will tell you later,and also what it is about..
See you soon :-)

Loveish

*hahaha*

I did not fold the laundry
I did not watch a movie
I wonder....
What did I do??

I talked to my brother and got him to start a blog too!! Hehe
bril74.blogspot.com just in case you want to follow up on him... :-)
I made dinner
I went for a couple of walks with the doggie
I said goodnight to Hampus, the youngest
hmmm
Now it is time for another walk with the dog and after that
Bedtime!!!
Goodnight to ya all! See you in the morning :-))

Loveish

Sunday, bloody sunday

What to say..

Sunday, bloody sunday.. Another weekend is over...tomorrow my kiddies is going their father and it all starts over again. It is lika a neverending circle, around and around and around.
We took a long walk with the doggies yesterday, we meaning: me, Olivia, Raffe and Romeo. It was really nice weather yesterday!! We had dinner together too. Around ten I had to go to bed, my body was aching tremendously, felt like it was breaking a apart. Every joint in my body aches. I think I need to see a doctor, and change my job..
Marcus had one of his friends over night, they have been playing on the computor and giggling all night! :-))
Hampus is outside with a couple of girls from his class, riding their bikes and running around.
Andreas is sitting by his computor reading his way to become a rich man! Maybe he can support his old mom by that time :-) He has such a determination! I know he is going to succeed!
I´m going to watch a movie and fold my laundry.... That, is no fun!!!! And try to use my fantasy to figure out something to make for dinner... Everyday the same problem :-)) Hehe It is hopeless..
I can not even count the number of books I have purchased, with pictures and recepies on different kinds of food, yet it doesn´t help me... Maybe I have to read them too?!
In five years I hope I have my own coffee shop, where I can cook and bake and run things the way I want to. I also want to do something for all the young pwople here in my town. They have nowhere to go, or to do, in the evenings, instead they just destroy things. I want to have a place for them to go, to sit and be together have a cup of coffee or tea and just socialize!! My head still spinning...
hehe
Now, it is movietime! I´ll tell you more about that later :-)

Loveish

Another day off

Another sunny day

another day off

:-)

Last night one of my friends came over, it got late... Again!

Unfortunately, I just was not in the mood for anything yesterday. I just felt so sad, without a known reason..

Thousands of thoughts rumbling around in my head.. Some times I think I´m about to solve all problems in the world. Maybe what I should do is concentrate on myself. That really is the hardest part.

On monday I´m going to my doctors to get the results of my blood samples, as ususal I hope everything is what it should be. Always this anxiousness in my tummie...

Yesterdays dinner was Pizza for Hampus and kebeb to the rest of the family, not the healthiest kind of food, but who care!? I am their mother, it is my decision -Hehe

I will skip the scale this weekend, it is no piont... Hehe

Maybe I will take a run this afternoon?? Friskis is not an option this month, A must have a big hole in my wallet... It is my darn car!!!! The car insurances this month and trouble with one of my incomes this month made the mess! :-) Hopefully it get solved in the middle of April.. Otherwise, I don´t know..

Hmm some pictures again :-)

"Moviestar, moviestar I think you are a moviestar"

To my friends.. :-)) With love :-)

" Idel solsken gör öken "

" Den som ruvar på hämnd håller sina sår öppna "

" En dålig arbetare grälar på sina verktyg "

" Okunnighet är andligt mörker utan måne och stjärnor "

" Ungdomen skulle vara ett idealiskt tillstånd om den kom lite senare i livet "


:-)

Today is a happy sad day...

That sentence could have been said by Puh, the bear, you know :-))



Just such a strange feeling it is, being sad and happy at the same time..

I´m sad becuase one of my co workers, one of my friends, Gabrielle, has been at the job her last day today. She is going to another job in a couple of weeks. At the same time I´m so happy for her, that she has the guts some other people (not meaning ME!!!! hehe) don´t have.. Congrats to you girlie!!! Gonna miss ya!!



My oldest son is in "the Big City" o´boy.. I hope he can find the way home... I know! He is 15 (16 to be..) and I have to let go!! Ok, ok... I will try!

The middle one is outside biking with some of his friends and will not be home until it is bed time...

The youngest one is at home!!! I´m not alone! :-))

As a parent I begin to see now what will happen in a couple of years.. I will be sitting here all alone!!! Panic! Is it now people start producing more kiddies to stay young and not alone!?
Hehehe NO I´m not going to have any more kids, Promise! I´m going to take care of myself when i get to the point when I don´t have any kiddies at home! HOPEFULLY, by that time, I have a relationship with someone, if I don´t I think I will spend so much time as possible abroad, maybe in Spain??!
'Want to join?? :-))

Plans for dinner on a friday? None...
Maybe it will just be a pizza tonight... I will think about that...

I will be back later, until then : Take care!!



Here is Gabby´s goodbye...

Loveish

Just some pictures :-))

Hmm me...

And then my youngest son Hampus, he has a hard time being serious!! Hehe He really makes me laugh!

I wonder if he is going to be an actor?? I bet he is going to be on a stage anyway! Love you all my kiddies!

"Bring in your courage. Your fears, leave at the door"

So true! To win you have to bet and for that needs courage!

And determination of course!

Today I´m at home as I told you yesterday. My son is having a cold so I probably will be home tomorrow as well. Right now he is sitting playing games on one of the computers, and I´m sitting here :-)

Gonna make some lunch in a little while and after that I´ll make som future plans and write som mail.

I feel a little restless, I always do when I´m at home. Too much to think about, I want to do so many thing I don´t know where to start.

I´ve been having a small down period for a while. When I just think, life is not fair. There is so many things I want to fulfill and yet it is taking me nowhere. Or maybe it does, it´s just me not noticing??

I now talk to a lot of people from around the world, and I realize my life is pretty good and it is MY life. Soon, together with someone, we will make a even better life for ourselves! I know it is so, I just don´t have alot of patience... I want it now!!!!! I guess I´m greedy hehe

I´m going to make plans for a girls night at my place, every one brings something to eat and we all eat together. Some singing and partying!! We need that now! And after that maybe a trip to "The big city".

Here is some pictures, until I get back from the kitchen!

See you soon!

Love

Mittwoche

Hmm today is wednesday... I had to pick Hampus up early from school today. He is sick again.. so at two a clock I was at home. I´ve been waching a Shakira concert, and a swedish program about midwives (hmm i wonder if I spelled that correct..) it is so exciting!! It is really my job in the dreams. Maybe some day soon I will have the chance to do something about that..

But first I need to find myself a very rich man so I have the possibility to study hehe :-)) Just kidding, if I were to wait for that I would have to keep on my dreaming ;-)

Now it is getting late again.. I have to take the dog for a walk but after that I am going to bed.

I know how my day is going to be tomorrow.. Looking for a new job and make some plans for my idea :-)

Have a good night sleep you all!

Kisses Ima

One day...

One day my dream will come true
one day I´ll have to find new goals

Today I had a meeting with my boss. It went really well. For an hour and a half we talked about life, love and my job of course :-) It felt really good. She now knows I might be looking for another job. Tomorrow I have a meeting with another so called "boss", teamleader you could say. Too bad I don´t have much to say. I think it´s boring to go to my job nowadays but the only one who can change that is ME... I´m on my way :-)

One of my friends took Olivia for a long walk :-) The dog is now laying on the bed and refuses to get up! Hehe

I´m going to finish up my coffee and then put Hampus to bed and after that watch a movie :-)

Maybe I´ll be back later! :-)

Huggies